It's pretty late now , half past 2...so why am I awake?

It's been a long time since I get to feel it,

The feeling of...nothing else bother in my mind but boredom,

Most people find it pretty hard to deal with,

But for me? It's a gift , a sign !

A great time to do the thing I don't do,

Like now , lying on bed , writing this , drinking my favorite tea , with only sole reason to wakeup tomorrow !

During my semester break , I am the most lazy people on earth .

I wake up at around 12...then chill around and had my lunch

And my main activity is just sports.

How good is that..compared to university life , where I had to split my focus for studies , ugh .

I wonder one day , if I could play sport for, ahhh , no no, I mean doing the things I enjoy for a living.

How good is that...

Like getting paid for sleeping , sitting at sofa , staring at fans or ceiling...

But silly me , life doesn't goes that way..anime does, but not life.

Success people do what need to do , doesn't matter they like it or not,

Success people willingly do unwillingly things .

That's pretty much it..

Actually I am kinda a locked in person..

Sometime I prefer staying in my room rather than go out to have fun.

People say I am odd , different from others.

But I think , wasn't that extraordinary?

Something I been holding to , the discipline , well , some slacked off...

Have become part of me already,

I don't need to recall it , learn it , get used to it anything.

It's who I am now.

My main focus is..staying healthy and academically healthy too .

As I realize , the moment I return to university life.

Thing will get worse , my life would be horrible..

It won't be just like pressure cooker .

It will be just like me getting squeeze by the tectonic plate .

People asked , why do I keep wanna make my self suffer in these unnecessary pressure ?

Even now I pretty much don't get it..

That why I keep searching for it .

I think I will meet the answer , when I graduate .

  

Dear Life,
I have completely lack of energy to complete a single thing since the semester has started. My academic is a mess , my room is a mess , my car is a mess , my whole life is like a mess , the only thing that kept me going through the day is just exercise , I completely neglect the important of academic , I still study everyday , but it seem like my brain don't want to accept it anymore , everyday I woke up and directionless .
Sincerly,
Dangerously Lack Of Motivation.

Chasing the Asymptote

We.... are artist..

we are artist..in our own life..

every mistake we make , is like a brush to our painting..,which create a space, a lining , a divider to allow us to paint on it...

every experience we obtain , is like a new colour to our life..

But...sooner or later..if we don't expand..we'll be running out paper to draw...

This is where...goals, achievement hit our mental..

Asymptote...

Ever have goal...that we never reach?

We thought that, if we kept running toward the particular point...we might we one step closer

but infact that it keep getting away away from us 

it's like chasing the horizontal line...where the ocean meet the skies, we never get there.

So..once in a while..

Take a look on our painting...

Look at all the achievement we made,

All those experience we learnt to make us better,

All those mistake that we made.

It's is a uncontrollable growth, a mental disorder..

Take a breaths , and look all around us...

Look all of those difference we made..

And the main point is..BE HAPPY with it..

And be aware of it...

What's the point of chasing goals and not happy with it huh?

Afterall..

it is ourself that matter to our goal ! 

*Just me on my lazy phase and self-convincing phase...

Geez..how I pass my time back then?

Now without music , how quite the surrounding is , how dull , how boring .

Not even sure if it's good for me , how I spent my weekend back then..

Gosh , I have totally forgotten it all .

People say , when we are exposed to a better enjoyment , we simple addicted to it .

Guess I make a mistake back then huh .

Maybe the hardcore me needed sometime to rest too yea , perhaps it is fine to be more of myself..

Yep , the lazy me is coming out , re-appear on surface again ! 

But, it wasn't wrong to..space out, for once a while .

Focus too much will just sometime easier to fall into pieces .

Why not focus on the momentum that will get me to my destination ,instead of the strength huh !

Come to think of that...maybe it is wasn't that bad as i think right..

Perhaps just me overthinking again !

I need wakeup , what's good for setting other example if I can't even carry it out myself !?

It;s..2.52 midnight !
Just removed myself from overwhelming of unsatisfied-ness because I couldn't finish my past year paper .
But anyway, I kept lie to myself that i can't solve those question is because I am tired and it's pretty late .
Tomorrow gonna try again , maybe it is because of..I didn't revise very often lately...
But gonna start now , because I just got myself a back injuries from lifting weight ! Congrats to me !
Have nothing else to do but to stay in my cabin/box/nest/room/hostle ! Or else my Mrs.See [Anyway , miss her hug :( ]will kill me :P
Hope it is nothing serious ! 

Final is coming , pressure is building up , gonna give my best final push , no wonder what it would cost me in this 2 week !
I won't fail myself , I swear I won't
Some people may not understand this but,
"Good" is your worse enemy to be "Better"
I am always not "Good" enough !
It is what it's take to be "Better" !

Discipline i been holding to.. everyday

1. There are always someone better than you , no matter how good you are .

2. Don't count the day , make the day count .

3.Don't bored because of study , study because of bored . 

4.Complain less , live more . 

5.Nothing is too hard , when you have heart .

6.Knowledge is the best provision of all age . 

7.Lower our own status when we are asking for knowledge . 

8.Don't compare with others but with yourself .

9.Aim high or don't aim .

10. Self discipline is the key to everything .

11. Hardwork is the only thing you have , when you are lacks of basic .

12.Do more , practice more , we got nothing to lose . 

13.Resistance ensure success , not hardwork . 

14. Do it the best you can , or don't do .  

15.Journey a million miles , start with a single steps . 

16.Procast is the thief of time . 

17. Not to be too dependent on lecturers but yourself .

18. Learn more , nothing to lose .

Busy...hectic study lifestyle..all that i ever imagine is right in place..but i almost forgot how to sleep and relax..perhaps that is the cost of it..*you know..everything got a price :(
Still searching ways to un-pressurize myself ! I will get there..someday ! 
So...my mom promised me to buy me an iphone5 if i get full flat for this semester !
Actually it is me myself offer this to my mom !
it is hard to get that , but who knows? Never try,never know !
Recently...i got attracted to SwitchWatch ! The one that i always wanted to buy but my wallet just can't spit the money out ! *well , it cost nearly monthly expenses of my , somewhere around Rm500 !
but i receive an email from my wallet !

Hey Dylan !
How about we make a deal , if u do score full flat , i will spit the money out for the watches ! 
deal?

Your sincerely,
Wallet 

Blah blah , just a way to convince myself to actually please myself abit ;P
Well , even thought with my hectic lifestyle , atleast that i know that my body is completely healthy !
With 3 day of gym and 2 day of badminton each week..why not!?

And yeah yeah ! I and my darling decided to get married !!!!!! #JasmineTeh #Mrs.See [ Awwww :( no instagram tag effect ]
Hahahaah ! Just joking ! but yeah we will someday ! <3 
Finally made a decision to go Singapore with her at December ! 
Finally got the chance to actually travel on our own :3  

This few day of rest is more than enough to fuel me up for the rest of my struggle , tomorrow going to leave hometown.....yet again ! Exam is coming up...assignment start to pile up , pressure is up .
All set to go , time to burn and shine baby !  University physic is really crazy by the way ! .___.

Till we meet again !

Grateful?What?

Sometime , i noticed that it is very hard for people to actually grateful for what they had right now , we are already considered lucky to have what we have now , yet somes just go on believing that their life sucks , they never did notice that we are given a chance to fix up our life if it is sucks , life may sucks but sometime it is due to we make stupid decision and ignore all the problem around , we are given the chances to make thing right , and why won't we be grateful for what we have right now and stop asking for more?If it life is still sucks for you now , asking for better things won't make our life awesome . It wasn't individual fault , since society inculcates it between us .
It is hard to notice that we are given a chances to fix thing up , some just willing to barrow their into the ongoing world and stop making their self better , a better you will outcome a better life . Life ain't suck , it just that our brain is constantly manipulating the scenario , when we scope in , we able to notice there is alot of time , where we can actually say NO for more reason and do it better , we must believe ourself is better than our own reason that prevent us from doing anything .
Life ain't suck , it suck when we are still unaware , ungrateful . When we are grateful for what we have , it means that we guilt for what mistake we done earlier . We will tend to stop making the stop mistake and improving ourself . If we are grateful , we are always happy of what we have , seriously , for me , i am very please for what my parent gave me . We all should !
Suprise ! human just happen to judge other human , we found out the bad side of someone , yet we complaint about it , but what we don't realize is , our own self having the same attitude with them who we judge . When we don't like it , why we want to inculcate it in ourself too?

Life is awesome , everything you have is better than alot people , just take your time , and actually link up the relation between grateful and outcome of your life . If kept on believing that grateful-ness doesn't effect your attitude and life? Sad to say, Happy Sucks Life of Eternity .

=D

As life goes on , i am starting to learn more about responsibility and everything i do will effect people around me .
So i mma take this time out to apologize for some wrong thing i done before and thing i haven't achieve yet.

Yes..sometime s*** happen , it wasn't life's fault , it is because we all do stupid decision . Back in the days when i was skipping classes , failing subjects and pissing my family off , i'm sorry that i didn't understand , all the naging and scolding is totally worth it , atleast i didn't learn it the hardway , atleast i still manage to catch up , thank you so much sis ! and your bf ! totally saved me from falling into deep shit  !

Besides , without the right friend and right timing and without God , i am nothing
Thanks god ! [even thought sometime i was bullshitting about...>< (sad case) ] even thought i am not a strong prayer , thank you God !
Without the right time , well , i wouldn't be here , pursuing what i always wanted , thanks to my sis bf ! made a freaking right choice to scold the heck outta just right at the start of form5 ! so sorry for the time i didn't know how to think at all , i was huminilating my family /__\
Also thanks to my mom and daddy ! even thought sometime my temper is rude and disrespect , i didn't really mean any of that , it just,take time to learn :/
Don't worry about me at here ! i'll make u guys feel that u made a right choice ! I won't fail you all !

and for my dear !
really sorry for sometime i disrespect :( due to the pressure i gave myself , sometime i can really become a dick [ sad case ]
you know , i will graduate my course with good result and everything will goes smooth for us in future !
well, it is a long way , we got alot to learn and what i know is  it going to get harder and tougher !
don't worry , i believe in you , u can make your family proud ! [ even thought sometime i said u can't , i just want u to do something about it, and i glad that it works now :D ]
Sincerely , u really make my life easier here , i don't even know how i am going to past it without you here .
So sorry that i couldn't remove the pressure off me , or else, i will lose the shape , i have to keep the pressure on all the time , this is my style of studying >.<
i love u much much ! xD

people changes due to time , brain won't just stay as where we as ,only if we wanted it to
i'm glad that i had breakthrough it !
Thanks guru !

I know , even thought it is just a nothing for other people , it means really really alot to me !
atleast it proved that i am not stupid ! for once in my life , i can finally be happy for myself ! =D

maybe that you guys that reading this , will be think that..i am thinking to much
no no , i am just being grateful , and also i been expecting this turning point to fix up everything . and it goes according to plan ! =D

Still a long way to go for my road !
Keep the spirit burning on !
5.5 years ain't very long !

Feel so good after i managed to fix up my guilt
I am on the right path !
CGPA 3.7 , i am coming !

Yeahh ! So..it is getting near now ! 2 more days and i am finally off to my University ! 

and...yet , i am all alone at house :( 

but whatever ,it is getting near and i am freaking excited about it !

Inti Nilai ! i'm coming ! 

But,this ain't the real point i finally crawl out and start blog some thing..well,because i literally have no point ! [TROLLED] 

Been working and playing this few day , i don't know why but i don't feeling anything even if the days i leaving is near 

Anyway , i looked at my academic calender for the first semester , and it show 

No. of Subject: 2

Great possibility that my first semester is going to be just plain MalaysiaStudies[Aka.Sejarah] and PengajaranMoral .

Which mean...it left me a pretty amount of time..

I am going to library to search for part time work or...just revise everything i learnt in Form5 [Since i forgot everything..almost everything ]

It have good and bad thought ,i'll have time to study and revise ! just look at the positive and productive [ <--- LOL] side ! 

Guess what ? My mom left me an impossible mission !

When i on my way to Nilai..she requested me not to sleep during the whole journey ;(

What am i going to do with 4hour in car :(

To Be Continue !

[When i reach there :3 ]

Wait for me Darling ~ <3

 

Lalala

So...I have been away for few month !

(Yeah,pretending like i have busy social life ,hahaha ,but whatever, i'm busy with work )

So guess it..how was my life been ?I had to admit it was awesome ! even though sometime life get brutal and rough ,but what i mean is...wasn't life suppose to be like that? Atleast i still get that chances to fight for what i want ! :3

Well,in just 2 week , i will go into the Dydx ( Turning Point) of my life , seriously , i am anxious and nervous of what life actually going to be there, but atleast my girl is there  [ Life is going to be alot better with you Darling ! ]


Yep,sent Her together with her family to Nilai few day ago ! Well,the place is awesome ! everything is perfect for study there , [I am actually anxious to go there + abit sad *leaving home ]
But as far as i know it , I am very proud of her , she is tougher than i though ! She will live there very good and i am going there soon  ! 


Finished buying about 80% of my stuff there , left mainly food...[yep,i love food xD ]
Currently,my hellbent is just to pass everything in the school , cuz i am bad with numbers and my first year mainly consist of number-ized subject ~ 
Even their Physic theory/concept is proved or carried out by complex calculation and worms-like alphabet LOL ! 
But whatever,if i have really pay attention and some hardwork there,i should be pass ! 


This is what my life i imagine to be in university 
Morning wake up for school , finished every lesson go back hostel and nap for a while , then wake up to revise and [My most favorite part] Swimming and exercising ! and went back to revise and sleep !
Perfect for me xD
Then Saturday Sunday i will be with her to go anywhere or do anything xD


Currently living inside my game xD

Back !

So , life have been great for this few week !
and getting ready for CNY !
Which mean rush hour in factory for me , *hand hurts
Blah,whatever,work doesn't to blog ,so let's us just skip that ;D

Waited for my Handphone son to get back =(
I finally got news from Penang , they say it will reach my hand in next week , Thursday !
I hope that it is true ,since they keep postpone-ing for about 2 week
*Ameeennnnnzzz

Nothing really happen this week few !
Pray hard for her to pass =(

Let's see something i been working on for 4 month ! =D [ Not hair yep ]

The imba-ness me ! before start !

On the progress

Still on the progress !

A month about from now

Now !

It may be not visible to other , but it mean alot to me =3
Still on progress ! until my own target =D

Spike not bad ey ? xD

Nahh,i will just stick like this :3

I think it have been almost a month didn't renew my bloggie =0 [Who care anyway =( ]
So,as i knew , life after SPM is quite fun , for the first month !
Because involved in travelling half way around the world !
Australia !
Well,i don't have much pictures here
But it is at her profile ! [ Try guess =) ]

The whole week at Melbourne is quite fun
I enjoy food , especially fresh seafood [Oysters,Lobster,Cod..you name it,i love it ]
This is the reason that i been to anxious to touch down in Melbourne !
Most of those seafood [ as mention above ! xD] were imported from Australia
And freshness is guaranteed ! The price is also acceptable !
Since Aussie currency is about 1 : - 3.2 +
But but but ,i didn't really had enough of it =(
Blah,next time kay? =D

Well,the next trip is to Singapore , [ i think this is the second time i visit Singapore =( ]
Went to universal studio too !
Still haven't got pictures on facebook tho , will be up soon =)

But i dunno wether if this is good or bad
I think i am too over obsess in losing weight =(
I lost like...about 10 pound [ 5kg ]
And sure that i am happy !
But i am still half way through my target [ u guess it =) ]
It is such a shock though , i never expect that i will manage to lose 5kg in like 2 month
[i know i know,it is slow ,because that i didn't really cut down my nutrition ,i just exercise alot ]
I expected to be like 2kg of weightlost , since i do it with my normal diet ,but it a good thing though =)

Step 1 : Halfway complete !
Step 2 : Get in shape [ still in progress ]

But you know , when we see a visible result , we will sure try harder to get better right?
And this is where i have the feeling of over obsess =(
I have the feeling of guilty even by eating a few table spoon of ice cream .
And last day i have break my own rule too x0
I dunno why i ordered a calories packing mocktail T.T
and i can't resist my self munching on the roasted chicken wing T.T

But,i still carry on my daily exercise ,not cycling
but swimming =)

See ya laterss.

xD

So,i was talking like 'after spm..after spm' with my friend when the year so freshly start !
And,now is after spm !
Quite fast ; )

So,as i knew it !
My parent planned me alot of thing !
First is car !

Took with webcam , my nexus gg-ed =(

FAILED -,-
I study book upside-down -,-

Well,it is obvious that i wasn't studying kay xD
Because...

I was playing my with my webcam xD
It have been my pals since my nexus were sent to hospital =(
And i figured it out,why don't i learn how to smile xD

I notice i have tiger teeth :3

*Baby tiger teeth :3

And and ! remember i was trying to have Show's hair style?
Fail anyway ! xD
Seee !

My bang too curly =/
anyway,i will just stick with that !
Since i can't be anybody else,why not be me :3


Oh yea yea,back to car !

I wonder what will my mentor react lol !
i know nothing about car xD
nor the law !
He/she will be very very very unlucky to pick me lol ! xD
Cikgu ! macam mana buat drift ? xD

That pretty much it lol xD
nothing much to do really
so i took alot alot of picture !
and..so...Bye ! xD

My top 20 imba-ness :3

1.I was born at the house i built myself :o

2.I can't fly ! Gravity just look the other way when i leaves the ground :3

3.When i cook breakfast ,the egg cracked itself =/

4.I can get blackjack with 1 card :3

5.Well,when Alexander Bell first invented the phone ! He received 3 missed call from me !

6.When USA first touch down on Moon,i showed them where to park :3

7.I can cut through a hot knife with butter !

8.I can create fire by rubbing two ice cube together !

9.I can drown a fish

10.I can ski up a mountain

11.i can dig a hole in the water

12.i can drink soup by using chopstick

13.i counted to infinity....twice !

14.i can slam a revolving door !

15.i can do wheelie on a unicyle

16.i can finish the Mario Boss without jump button :3

17.I killed two stone with one bird

18.When i was doing pushup , no,actually i was pushing the earth down ~

19.I don't wear a watch,i decide what time is it !

20.When i go to toilet ,i doesn't flush it,i scared the shi*t out of it :o

Woo...

So,it happen to be last day to school today !
Without counting the exam time .
So,it happen that all Wei-katsuki [Akatsuki from Naruto xD]
[Member consist of mainly middle Wei ! xD ]

But Dong didn't get his camera come , so he is headed :3
Well,mainly just talking in class
Tease and insult each other like normal .
Gusta style !

Went into office to get something from teacher
And it happen [ It just happen ! =,=]
All teacher that teach me were talking about my class

Teacher 1 : ' Wei Run ! You finally came ! '
Teacher 2 : ' How come Sc3 like that? How many people attend today? '
Me : 'Harlo ! :3 Erm ! About 11 ! 5 went home before 2nd period :3 '
Teacher 2 : 'Sc3 never change ! ROFL :3 '
And so on...=,=

After taking few set of paper
I saw my 'mother' [My English teacher ! she's nice that why i called her mother *only from behind'
She wished me good luck for exam and believed me that i will make school proud :0
* I wished ,don't put too much hope on me teacher ! i am not that good and i did not prepared well ,i didn't make full use of my time ! =/ Sorry if i let you down ><

Picture of the day
Taken during Bio-ing and Sejarah-ing


May the luck be with you !
Yes ! You !

I am gusta ! xD

Nothing much to say ! :3
How well i prepared for the le exam?
Like a boss !
At le starbuck study like a boss !
Me booksta !

Why le me speaking typing like Spanish ?
Me gusta !
Le me been watching "le boss" on facebook !
Why u no post more ?
Me le boss !

I ma face le exam like a boss !
Fffffffuuuuuuuuuuuu ! xD

*wopss,my Spanish accent is like a boss !

我之学笑记 =,=

对！没听看错~
我看看了周围的人，全部都有独特的招牌笑容
除了我，拍照时只是会没表情，或者迷迷笑[偶尔]
所以，就想拿出一些时间，来学笑 ! =0

我发觉我笑得好假，也许是挂牌笑容吧..
也许，最好看的笑是自然吧？
我也勉强不出，该笑时还笑吧 ：3

是最近无聊还那么的拉，书又读不入脑，就没办法的让自己休休下，
可能是到了我的极限吧，该让它慢慢退回，明天应该可以‘开工’

其实，看看往年，我还发觉自己还蛮喜欢拍女孩的照片的，认识我久的应该知道

只是各人兴趣，不要说我什么什么
拍照，也是种福气和享受
Just gotta enjoy before everything went too late

怎么身边的人，都
而怎么老是我，都
也许，比较
比较好

I skipped few day...=,=

Mainly because that..the sky is not happy =(
You not happy,i am not happy =(
I just want to go for jogging TT
Why...? TT

Hmmm,maybe i picked the wrong season to start my plan =/
Better luck next time kid .

Went to haircut yesterday [Yes,finally i save enough money for a hair cut ! xD]
Amos trimmed my fringe !
I wanted to cover my forehead !
But he continue the 45 for me =(

Too bad =(
And not so thick too =/

Ahh,nevermind ~
After spm will thick once again ~ =/

=/
So..later guys =/